Ramblings Of A Sleep Deprived Mind

Sometimes I sit there and wonder about all the “what ifs”. I hate it and it never does me any favours.

Tonight, I’ve been wondering about you. I probably shouldn’t, and I don’t know if you do it too, but I’ve been wondering about what if we had never met. How would our lives be different to what they are now?

Would choices that we made back then still be relevant today? Would they mean anything? Would we still be strangers, drinking in the same places, socialising with the same people, walking around the same town?

You could say that every action has a consequence. Maybe consequence is the wrong word. I’m trying to visualise it. I can see a start point and an end point. Between these two points are thousands, hell, maybe infinite pathways. It could be that the pathways are mapped as one decision is made, that the pathways themselves are not predetermined. But the end point is. It always was.

Regardless of how many paths we walk to get there, how many times we stop for a rest or go back on ourselves, the ending is always the same.

Or perhaps, I shouldn’t mistake coincidence for fate. Maybe fate doesn’t actually exist and there’s no such thing as destiny. Or the end point that I mentioned isn’t set in stone after all. Maybe the outcome of that end point is determined by the paths you take to get there.

Or perhaps, I should just get some sleep and stop talking shit. Who knows?

Now Playing: The Perishers – Pills (Feat. Sarah McLachlan)

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