Tonight, I’ve been wondering about you. I probably shouldn’t, and I don’t know if you do it too, but I’ve been wondering about what if we had never met. How would our lives be different to what they are now?

Would choices that we made back then still be relevant today? Would they mean anything? Would we still be strangers, drinking in the same places, socialising with the same people, walking around the same town?

You could say that every action has a consequence. Maybe consequence is the wrong word. I’m trying to visualise it. I can see a start point and an end point. Between these two points are thousands, hell, maybe infinite pathways. It could be that the pathways are mapped as one decision is made, that the pathways themselves are not predetermined. But the end point is. It always was.

Regardless of how many paths we walk to get there, how many times we stop for a rest or go back on ourselves, the ending is always the same.

Or perhaps, I shouldn’t mistake coincidence for fate. Maybe fate doesn’t actually exist and there’s no such thing as destiny. Or the end point that I mentioned isn’t set in stone after all. Maybe the outcome of that end point is determined by the paths you take to get there.

Or perhaps, I should just get some sleep and stop talking shit. Who knows?

Now Playing: The Perishers – Pills (Feat. Sarah McLachlan)

Nor have I bothered to actually come on here and write something. I need more motivation in my life man, seriously. This is ridiculous.

Right, starting this week, I’m sorting my shit out. I’m actually going to remember I run this site, and stay regular with updates.

Let’s see how long it’ll last this time…

Now Playing: Sarah McLachlan – Full Of Grace

You’d make your way in, I’d resist you just like this
“YOU CAN’T TELL ME TO FEEL!”
The truth never set me free
So I did it myself

You can’t be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you won’t come any closer
You’ve got to reach out a little

Open your eyes like I opened mine
It’s only the real world; a life you will never know
Shifting your weight to throw off the pain
Well you can ignore it
But only for so long

You look like I did, you resist you just like this
“YOU CAN’T TELL ME TO HEAL!”
And it hurts remembering
How it felt to shut down

You can’t be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you won’t come any closer
You’ve got to reach out a little

The truth never set me free so I’ll do it myself

You can’t be too careful anymore
When all that is waiting for you won’t come any closer
You’ve got to reach out a little more